"Sexual sin basically says, “I can’t trust God to meet these needs. I can’t trust God to provide these needs in the way that he chooses, therefore, I need to go outside of his provision” —whether that’s through the internet and looking at women in ways you should never look at them, masturbation, sleeping around—it’s really saying, “You’re not true, God. I can’t trust you to be good. I have these desires and urges in the moment, and I need to go take care of them because I can’t trust you to.” So I think that’s really the heart of sexual sin. It’s a heart that doesn’t trust God. It’s a heart that, instead of worshipping the God who is trustworthy, who knows our every need, and who’s good to provide what we really need, we commit idolatry and say, “I need to worship sex instead of you, God." (from Dave Bruska)
Ran across this today. And it hit me like a ton of brinks. Not that I haven't come to the same conclusion before, but simply because it re-reminds me that I have issues...specifically a trust issue.
I don't trust God.
I don't trust God.
Holy crap.
The God who made the Universe, the God who designed DNA, laminin, quarks, black holes, the God who knew me in my mothers womb, the God who sent his ONLY Son to die for my sins, the God who has relentlessly pursued me with his grace....THAT's the guy I don't trust?
Well, I usually say that I trust God...but what I say and what I do don't always line up. So I have to see again that my repeated return to lust as a coping mechanism robs God of his rightful place in my life. His place is as Provider, Sustainer, Healer, Counselor, Friend, and Savior. I have let lust come in and occupy most/all of those roles in some fashion or another.
Well, I usually say that I trust God...but what I say and what I do don't always line up. So I have to see again that my repeated return to lust as a coping mechanism robs God of his rightful place in my life. His place is as Provider, Sustainer, Healer, Counselor, Friend, and Savior. I have let lust come in and occupy most/all of those roles in some fashion or another.
What’s difficult about sexual sin is it has a unique shame factor to it. It’s just a downward spiral. And what happens when you commit sexual sin is you typically withdraw from the things you need the most, whether that’s first and foremost Jesus, and his people, and so, it’s just a downward spiral, it’s a really downward spiral. But it’s an issue of the heart. And the good news is Jesus changes hearts. (also from Dave Bruska)
Thank God for Good News.
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