those with no fruit, or those living in habitual sin.
So even tho I am in Christ and saved by Grace, there's an expectation of growth, or some development, maturity. Trying to wrap my head around the idea of grace without using it as a license to keep sinning and simply claim that I just "unable" to get victory in this area
....maybe its just that I am 'unwilling' to submit to the amount of pain necesary to see that battle won.
There is still the reality that I am living in a sinful body, I am not yet perfected, I will always have a sin nature. But will i always give in to it so easily?
Porn has been my struggle since college, lust was even years before that.
More than half of my life i have been hamstrung in one way or another with this...even if only for its power to contribute to my insecurity in my relationship with my Heavenly Father.
I am grateful for Gods faithfullness in the midst of my faithlessness :)
All is not lost, and God is not finished with me yet...but yikes its hard not to get a lil' down about it once in a while!
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